I walked 4 hrs today! Day 92
Oct 11, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it
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welcome to Wednesday we are home alone
today because Ellie had to go to the
auction so I was telling you guys
yesterday that we had things we had to
well that he was gonna do I had things I
need to get done
I completely forgot to hit my makeup
from last night I fell asleep with my
makeup on your eyes and clearly did not
wash my face this morning okay hold on
you guys hold on hold on hey do you guys
want lunch today do you guys want you
guys want Burger King today and yes my
son stayed home from school today I woke
up with a horrific headache really
really bad headache and so I had to take
some medicine and I emailed his teacher
was like hey you know do you mind if he
misses today are you guys really doing
much he's like no no it's okay he's like
you know I get those those days happen
his wife is actually due to have a baby
anytime now so he's like I totally get
it he's like keep him home and rest up
which I did I actually the kids watched
cartoon and I crashed for a little while
today this morning I had to because my
head was just oh it was pounding but I
took my migraine medicine which always
kicks in and helps me so
now I still have a lingering headache I
do but it's still there but it's not as
bad yeah well it's not nothing like it
was this morning that's more I couldn't
even open my eyes it was so bad but it's
doing better so we have to run to the
bank and deposit some checks and then I
need to run to Dollar Tree but I'm gonna
go to the one across town because we
have well we have time to go so anyways
that's what the pool Lane is but I
definitely wanted to check in with you
guys and say come on in and let y'all
know that I am Alive I am here and I'm
just taking it easy today see what else
what else what else I think that was
really it
I think depending depending I'm gonna no
no 100% cuz well I always say Oh what
I'm in the store and that I never do but
I'll try and remember to pull my camera
out and vlog for a little bit this
afternoon when I met dollar store if the
kids are behaving because I think I'm
gonna take them into the store with me
so okay hold on baby girl
so anywho I will check in with you guys
a little bit my gosh you guys we are
just getting out a Dollar Tree full we
were in there forever and I feel like
I'm going to like I was getting really
sick in there like I'm like profusely
sweating I was feeling really nauseous
like way nauseous and I really don't
even know what I can do to cause it to
go away
one of it's because I haven't eaten I
mean I seriously have not eaten anything
today and I already took my meds so it's
like 12:30 and I haven't eaten so I'm
wondering if that's why I'm feeling so
like funky but I'm gonna get my kids
Burger King for lunch because it's a
mommy and kiddo date-date they got some
toys and I just had a really good time
with my babies
so I am currently that direction so that
I can get them their food I don't know
if I should just don't know what to do
because there's a subway but it's not
drive-through and I really don't want to
leave my kids in the car especially
because they're just not really the best
influence today I think I'm just gonna
see if they have like some type of a tea
that I can get here to feel a little bit
better and then go from there because
I'm just really not one of those and in
the three sprites yep that's it thanks
get my a debit card out
I don't know which one I'm supposed to
go to yes
okay you guys get ready to get your
drinks okay Maya grab her water please
okay hold on Maya will get it on me
so I went ahead and I just got a regular
just a whopper and I'll give my fries to
my Oh because I don't eat the fries too
many calories
I'm just meet the whopper because I have
like I said it's already told that he
might please stop for the kids I'm sure
don't want your straw there's straws all
over your head but I mean I've been all
day without eating so I need to get some
colors and because I'm feeling really
sick
and I just got a regular raspberry tea
the one tastes a raspberry tea party
wasn't so lumpy
we smile you're on camera trying to
hurry you can meet somebody back at the
house because they're coming to I posted
up some lanterns for Seoul last night
and there they are going so fast
the other
yeah you can just get regular coke it's
fine
anyways I posted up these lanterns
because I'm just trying to like descale
things out that I don't need so I went
ahead and put them on and they are going
like some hot water can I get a small
cup of ice just art of large cup of ice
even okay mine here straw Oh mark thank
you so much anyways but I'm just trying
to like kind of like get out stuff out
of the house that you know clearly I
need to like make space on so okay give
me the bags so I went ahead and I give
me the bags
give me the blanket and then tell me
when you're done put this in one of
their cupholders ok these are hot put
those in one of their cupholders I put
it in their cup holder Maya because they
don't wanna spoil it
give them their hamburger
okay okay okay still out chill out good
afternoon I am actually heading out to
Walley world
I want to well Alys home so that is a
plus on my side and so I wanted to go
check and see if they've got some sorry
looking for my climate change er I
wanted to check and see if they had
these pajama bottoms god my brain one
shop anyways I'm gonna go and see if
they have any pajama bottoms there's
certain ones I'm looking for there and
then they're actually the men's section
and they're red and black plaid I don't
know what it is right now about me and
plaid but I am really into this bad luck
so they had some the other day over
there and I was like well I'll just take
a look and see if I can't find any
well they had over my sighs hold on I'm
driving so of course I'm not paying
attention to everything I'm saying
anyways so they had some the other day
over at Walmart and I really really
really liked him I wanted him so bad but
I didn't get them because I knew that
you know I said I was trying not to buy
clothes but I went ahead and checked
into them and I really liked them so I'm
gonna see if they have my size there
tonight and picked up a pair I needed to
pick up some shrimp for dinner I think
I'm gonna have me a crab salad because I
just sounds really good but yeah so
we shall see but I need to get like at
least a bag of solid for me because I
don't have any and I keep forgetting to
get them when I go at home so I was like
ok no today I am going to get my solid
and I got like sunflower seeds to go on
them and some cranberries and it sounds
so yummy so I think I'm gonna have it me
has salad and all he wants his fish and
shrimp I'm not really in the mood for
fish and shrimp you don't I love fish
and shrimp but I have to be in the mood
for it if I am not in the mood that it's
like no not not having it so I'm just
really not in the mood for it so I
figured well why don't I just go ahead
and get it back a solid and make that so
that's what I'm gonna do but I'm gonna
try to make this trip kind of fast
because I'm gonna be bringing home stuff
for his dinner and it is already 5:13 so
I don't want to be out too late
yeah really have a whole lot to do yeah
anyways but I came home and still was
dealing with a really gnarly headache
like just I don't get it I'm not quite
sure why my headache was so bad today
the only thing I can think of is because
the last couple of nights
that I've been before going to bed I've
been having a bag of this it's called
Skinnygirl popcorn and it's a lime and
know it's a lime I'm in something but it
is so good mmm
but it's a very salty and I'm wondering
because I've been feeling like my legs
are even a little bit swollen I'm
wondering if I'm starting to swell up a
little bit from the popcorn so anyways I
was like well I'll go ahead and not have
that for my bedtime snack whatever
and then Olli let's see I'll probably
get him a thing of ice cream because he
had ice cream the other night and I like
getting him a little treat nice once in
a while even though I can't of it you
know
but anyway so when we came home I just I
made a gift for a friend of mine that
just recently lost a pet baby so she you
know she's been pretty sad and I'm gonna
spend some time with her this weekend
I'm so excited so therefore I sat and
made a little gift that I'm going to
take for her on Sunday I'm so excited
and then I just like kind of rested and
we had a really good day to date but
then it was like the last like Howard
that before all he came home the kids
were just starting to get really hard on
me and I was just like I was really
having it done like I was just ready to
check out for motherhood for the evening
so he came home at like the perfect
timing to take over and let mama go and
have just a little bit of a breather
which is nice you know I used to never
take those never and I just you know
I used to feel very very guilty like I
used to carry a lot of guilt on my
shoulders when I was gonna take a break
you know I just I don't know if it was
more so than I didn't feel like not that
moms in in general don't deserve breaks
because I believe all moms deserve
breaks but I personally dealt with a lot
from my own self issues that I didn't
need to take a break because if I took a
break then that's gonna make him very
upset now let me make sure I make that
clear he never made me feel that way
but I would you know I've talked on this
before in the past that I am just a
really bad person when it comes to not
not believing that I need to personally
take a break because I was pretty pretty
much raised as you know when you're up
you are up you don't take naps you don't
now the people around me took naps but I
didn't and so I pretty much you know was
worth was very used to you know no not
be none of that
and
I'm not saying anything bad but that's
just how I was raised
so for me I was just you know if for two
seconds dude let me over for two seconds
if I thought that I was gonna take a
break I would instantly jump - I'm
becoming selfish that's not right I
shouldn't need a break you know I'm like
I don't want to upset him because those
were the things that were entitled to me
was if I said I needed a break or I
needed a nap or I needed just some
downtime it just wasn't absolute no no
no like we're just not gonna we are
definitely not going to play that game
so it has been very hard for me to
accept that I do need breaks and I do
need that downtime because have I not
get that downtime then what am I
supposed to do you know and as I've
gotten better at saying hey I need some
downtime like you know as soon as all he
came home we talked about our days you
know and that is I love you know
connecting with him on that level of
just sharing with me like his good day
and you know his highs is lows or you
know everything in between and vice
versa and then it was like okay you know
I shared with him my day and then I was
like hey you know I would like to you
know go to Walmart and at first he was
like well why don't you just do it
tomorrow and I was like I really kind of
need to do it today and normally I would
never say that normally I'd be like oh
okay that's fine and I would just suck
it up buttercup and continue to do you
know
the whole just stay home but now it's
like no if I if I really need the break
I need to say hey I need a break because
have I not say that then we're running
into the circumstances in the situation
of Amy's getting frustrated Amy is
getting irritated Amy needs now Amy's
gonna start to take it out on the kids
on Ally on myself and it's just gonna
make for such an ugly situation so in
return I just know I accept when I need
a break I need a break you know we had a
really good day today my kids and I had
an amazing day today but even if we have
good days we I still as a mom I still
need a break and as my kids they need a
break for Mom
so yeah that's how that came about that
I am going to Walmart tonight is because
I just I just needed a mommy day and are
not a mommy day but a mommy break and
then Sunday like I was saying I've got a
friend date so I'm really excited we're
gonna go and hang out and that I just I
never get to do that and I'm so excited
to start building some amazing
relationships you know I want friends
and my husband is always I mean all he
is always encouraging me Amy go meet
people go find friends you know and I'm
just always like known
oh no and he's just like come on like
you need time alone - you need a break -
and no no no and but he's right
he really is right and it is true I do
need breaks and I am you know getting
better at that and I am putting in my
social anxiety aside because I deal with
that a lot you know I didn't realize how
much of social anxiety I get but I have
to be able to finally say okay you know
what here we go we're going to do this
we're going to start creating
relationships with you know friends and
have that time that you know we need and
that's a good thing
and so yeah I am so so excited for
Sunday to come it cannot come soon
enough because I finally get to hang out
with a friend of mine and where did I
meet this amazing person right here on
YouTube right here on YouTube I met this
amazing person and you know and I have
gained so many amazing relationships
unfortunately some of my relationships
are out of state relationships which is
sad to a point because I just wish that
I can you know be able to be a bird and
fly from each state to state and meet up
with all of you guys because you're so
all amazing people
but you know if I can do it locally for
now why not you know and so yeah I am
really excited to finally get to
intermingle with people and create
something that I've never ever sincerely
had and so this is going to be very
interesting and very exciting so I have
that on Sunday the Saturday is all these
days so he has his dad time that he gets
to go and do whatever and usually that
contains car stuff of course men but I
mean it's just it's a nice a nice thing
a nice brain so I just I've been just
chillin but I'm almost at Walmart so as
soon as I get there and I get in then I
will check in with you guys and see
what's going on I'll talk to you just
love you look at that isn't that
beautiful
like beautiful I was just like I came
out of Walmart and that's what I came in
to out to and I was like oh so pretty so
so so pretty
anyways I'm trying to back up and then
I'll show you guys my beautiful face no
I'm just not conceited or anything you
know not at all
anyways okay I am just getting out of
Walmart and let me tell you I did not
blog in there you guys know me by now
just don't even listen to what I say I'm
an overlook because just clearly is
never gonna happen I get in there and
get busy looking and I never get like a
time to like just look because we're
always like in a hurry because you've
got the kids screaming crying you know
carrying on doing all that so I never
get to just like look and so when I go
to the store and I'm able to just like
look I completely get zoned in like
season and completely forget now I'm
supposed to be lucky
well him at the store so clearly that is
a yes no Amy did not lock
gotta love me girlfriends anyways but I
did get some goodies I got shrimp for my
hubby I got ice cream for my hubby I got
little snack things for the babies and
for my AK and I got me two of the plaid
pants one of these other kind that I'm
just like in love with I was hoping that
they fit me I don't say why not because
I've been really like doing good with
this whole like starting to fit into
clothes that I didn't think that I would
fit into so that's like you know a good
thing on my part
yeah um but so I got those and then I
picked up this purse and instead it was
for 597 I know it did I've all seen it
anyways
so I'm in line and I just happen to look
at the tag in us at 1397 I'm like how
much that I seen it for so I was
I was at the line and I so she scanned
it innocent 1397 I was like I was back
there innocent 597 and there was lots of
them there was you know the stripe had
one there was black ones blue all this
stuff right I know darn well I seen 597
so she's gonna put it in she put $5.00
as like oh no 597 trying to be honest
you know and the semen or see us in
whatever they are the hawks she is
sitting there watching the lady put my
stuff in it she's like what's going on
and I was like oh well this is ringing
up 1397 but I seen it for 597 like how
what have I got 97 cents out of it if I
didn't see what I thought I seen anyways
and I said but she put five dollars so I
was just telling her it's a 597 and
she's like I'll go back and I'll check
myself and I'm like okay go go for it
dummy
well I'm standing there and she comes
back she's like no they're all 1397 I'm
like I pay for the stuff and then go
back and look she's like oh well here
was the thing I said oh I said well I
don't think I want it because I don't
want to pay 1397 for a purse that I know
I seen Friday 97 for like what can I pay
for myself and then I'll just go back
and look again you know to see what's
out over there she's like me and I
already went and looked and I'm like
hold up I didn't say you didn't they
said
chill down a little I said I'm not
trying to Overmind you I said but I said
if you heard me clearly can I pay for my
items and then go back and look and see
what else is back up there that's what I
said and I said is that okay and she
says well yeah but you have to have your
receipt well no crap why would I like
get rid of my receipt when I'm in the
store
and anyways I'm a receipt fanatic
because I always save my see receipts
and the reason why is because all I know
you know he has to have all the receipts
because of his business have it be
something that we needed to buy for the
business and then to I've always kept
receipts because with my day care
business you have to have every receipt
when you're doing write-offs so it's
just something that we have been in the
habit of for a long time is bullion
receipts so I go back and look and I'm
like oh my god they are 1397 like what
the heck
but that wasn't originally why I went
back there I went back there just to
look and see if there was any other
person I wanted and the only reason why
I'm looking I'm like looking for persons
because the purse I have it's more of
like a floral and you guys have seen it
it's the summer one well I kind of
wanted to get something that's just a
little bit like more folly filling or
like low-key you know I mean I never
have done that before but I just
something to have change a change and
then all my other purses go under the
bed and they get brought out when the
time is right well anyway so I look but
I ran across those purses again the ones
that I thought were 597 as I go oh my
gosh they really are 1397 like okay I
mean fair's fair
I understand that I'm not trying to get
an item for cheap or you know like
try and snag a purse for less than art
for less value than what it is supposed
to be for but if it really is then be
fair to me and give it to me for what it
is but if it really was 1397 okay I
understand that no I you know no and it
wouldn't so I went back there and I
looked I just didn't see anything really
and I don't want to pay like a whole
bunch of money and I could go on Amazon
and looking and I could but I just again
I don't really foresee a reason why so I
was just like you know what just forget
it I'll just go back and get the one
person for 1397 call it even and that's
fine you know but I just wanted to go
back and see if there was anything
cheaper before I would have spent $13
you know because it's not that it's a
bad price for the purse no it's not but
what's a bad price for the purses if I
thought it was 597 and it jumped a 1397
yeah it becomes a little bit of a oh you
know I mean for me it is anyways so I
was just a little bit bummed but I mean
it's okay
and then so I got everything that I
clearly needed and then my hubby called
and was like hey are you gonna be coming
home and I'm like yawn so he's probably
hungry he's been gone all day and he's
wanting to eat and then after all of
that talked about oh I want a crab salad
Yatta Yatta Yatta mm yeah
welcome forget my solid so it looks like
Amy's gonna be having fish insurance
tonight
I'm just really not in the mood for it
but I'm doing what you gotta do is I
don't think that we have any salad like
any lettuce even to kind of to just make
a make-believe salad I don't think we do
and off like stopping at Safeway I just
want to go home and have fun okay so
here's here's the the most proudest
moment of them all you guys the proudest
moment so I got to Walmart and I was
like debating okay am I gonna go to cart
as I always do you guys know that so
order my brain for a few minutes and
how's it well if they have a cart you
know I'll just go in it just to you know
make it simple and that way I you know I
just be lazy today so I went ahead and I
pulled up and I didn't even park in a
handicapped spot I just parked in a
regular spot because I do have handicap
for my feet I've had it for multiple
years but
anyways so I
parked my car and then I went to go to
start walking towards like the back of
my car to go up and there's a motor car
sitting right there and I'm thinking oh
this is a sign I'm to have the motor car
and I jumped on it but after was getting
on as like no you know what I am gonna
take this car I'm gonna take this car
and I'm gonna take it back to the store
and I'm gonna get my little fluffy butt
out of this part and
it's like we travel time right now
anyways I just wanted to be able to
really experience you know a good time
and the other day when I went I was in
the motor car but that was because I was
on my cycle I'm still on my cycle but I
mean I was heavy on my cycle and I knew
my boundary of what I can handle right
now and I'm not doing it to make myself
uncomfortable you know if I'm clearly
just not filling it then I'm not gonna
do it but if I can handle it and I can
walk it why am I not doing it like I
need to get up and start moving around
and I need to you know I got to get back
on my regimen of exercise and I don't
care if that means you know I take these
kids to the store every single day and
walk for a couple hours like that's what
I'm gonna do then because I have got to
keep up my exercising I wish that I
would be able to start doing swimming I
really really really do and I'm at a
point now where I mean I know I could
walk to the to the inside the gym to the
pool like I know I could but now it's
just you know the tiny you know timing
is so hard for us right now
it really is like I mean I struggle as
it is now to find time
so just two minor things and to leave
the house and start doing swimming and
stuff I think it would just take more
from our time that we just clearly don't
have right now when I can just as easily
go ahead and do workout at home because
I'm not depriving myself of my workout
like I can still work out that's not you
know and I mean and if I was to ask
Ollie hey you know I want to really
start doing the swim you said he would
he would make it work it I you know he
would make it possible for us to do that
but it's it's not even about that it's
just getting that real time that I just
I don't find Polly finds it for me and
he would I know he would because you
know he tells me like that would be him
so on something that would be so selfish
of me to not find time for you to to do
water aerobics if that's what you want
to do but you know and I might talk to
my friend that I'm gonna be beating up
on Sunday and see about something she
would be interested in and if it is then
maybe we can figure out a thing that we
can do it together but again it's not
about me doing it alone or together it's
just again finding the time to do it is
that's the biggest stump but I mean if I
was to try and figure out a schedule
like you know three times a week or even
four times a week but we'll say three
times a week you know from 6 to 8 I
could go and do work out why not and
then come home and shower and eat some
dinner and then you know go on with our
evening schedule or even go from 5 to 5
to 7 you know so I might talk to Olly
about it I don't know if it's something
that we're prepared to do right now you
know in that again that is okay like we
right now are in such a crazy season of
our life because we've just got so much
going on business-wise but it's not
something that is out of our reach like
we can figure this all out and we can do
it it's just a matter of just figuring
this all out you know in figuring out
schedules but I really want to get to
the gym I think and start doing a little
bit of working out I you know I think
it's gonna be very important especially
because I'm gonna have a lot of extra
skin as I'm losing so I think it's gonna
be very important to get this time where
I am
you know starting to tone up my skin and
my muscles because I can foresee this to
become an issue with my skin if I don't
so we'll see like you know we'll
definitely see but it's I don't so we'll
find out what's up but anyways I am now
home and I'm gonna go in and get the
shrimp into him because he is probably
clearly starving right now
but I'm gonna close tonight a little
early that way I can go and I want to
take a shower and stuff I haven't
showered today because I was with the
kids all day so I'll go take a shower
and wash my hair and just get nice and
clean feeling but I hope you guys
enjoyed my vlog today and enjoyed going
along with us and our crazy life but I
just I don't know I am so excited to see
where this all takes us again I feel
like I am just moving up now like being
able to walk in the store for multiple
hours I'm not used to that and so it's
exciting to be able to share those
things with you guys and again I am so
so sorry that I did not vlog while I was
at the store I say this to you guys all
the time and then I fail out so remember
when I say I'm going to vlog do not
believe me because isn't that probably
gonna happen
but anyways and welcome to all of the
new subscribers I'm so happy to see you
guys here I keep seeing new subscriber
new subscribers so I wanted to thank you
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for everybody else thank you for being
here for me and continuously always
encouraging me and supporting me and
pushing me too
can you to push past the you know the
uncomfort zone because that sometimes
what has to happen and you guys are so
amazing when you guys do it so anyways I
am in a close here I will check in with
you guys tomorrow in the morning until
then sweet dreams you guys bye
clearly I forgot to get my salad at
Walmart the bag anyways so I came home
and all he just made me the shrimp and
fish and that's cauliflower with cheese
sauce over it I get it in the steamer
bowls and then I just drink it with one
of my sparkling waters
